40 Days of Fasting, Praying, and Giving.

Monthly Archives: June 2014

So we aren’t foster parents.  I have mixed feelings about this.  I think part of me is disappointed, part of me is relieved, and part of me is confused.  

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Why would we feel so strongly that we should say yes if this child wasn’t coming into our home?  Part of me thinks it’s related to being willing to say yes, which is what a lot of the content of this fast has been already.  

And speaking of saying yes, Tim told me yesterday that he’s officially telling AFLAC goodbye and he’s going to take his new job full-time.  I mean, I can’t be sure how I feel about that…wait, wait, yes I can.

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This is a massive, huge, awesome thing.  I have praying for this for months.  

And then the weirdness ended for the night as we went off to sleep.

 

So, it gets weirder.  I’m driving with my client today and I get a call from a social worker who asks me to take in a foster child who’s placement is falling apart and she starts describing *my client*.  I’m all…

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*Then* she asks if I will consider taking her in as a foster mother anyway.  

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Needless to say, I spent over 6 hours today trying to get this kid a living arrangement for the weekend so I could go home.  Now the work day is over and Tim and I are going to have a little time to check in before I go to a meeting with the author of the devotional I’m following for the fast.   It’s just one crazy thing after another over here and I’m just trying to keep up.  

But I’m holding onto hope because my medical stuff has been significantly better during the fast and that is a welcome change.  I think this is mostly because I’m not putting crap into my body.  But also, I’m really, really, really freaking hungry.  

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Whatever else happens, I’m pretty excited about it because it’s going to glorious!

More to come!


Okay so let me first apologize for keeping everyone waiting so long, I have been *so* unmotivated the last few days to do anything that wasn’t life or death.  

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Because I’m hungry. Like really hungry…

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Day 2!  Sunday I woke with a splitting headache (the same one from Day 1 that still hadn’t subsided) and no motivation.  But I pulled it together and got to worship practice on time…ish.

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Surprisingly, I felt something during prayer and all of the sudden all my physical stuff faded away and worship was really excellent.  I really felt the Holy Spirit moving and I know that sounds vague and odd to people who aren’t into that kind of thing, but let’s not assume I’m a wordsmith who can wax poetic about the movement of the unseeable and let’s assume I’m just me.  So I’ll call it wibbly-wobbly timey-wimey stuff and leave it at that, k?

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Sunday after church I was an emotional wreck again but then I went to Tim’s softball game which was actually a good social break despite the blistering heat.  Sunday night we had a leadership summit meeting where our campus pastor prayed for us and we got some really great support from a bunch of folks who have already done this fast or are in the midst of it right now.  

Day 3: Monday, need I say more?

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On the way to work, however, I actually had really great prayer time and got to talking with God about my marriage, what I want for my hubs and I, and for me individually.  I’m praying again for my health, my husband’s job situation and our future family, to clarify.  Tim has been working for AFLAC for some time with no revenue, which has been super hard financially as it puts all the burden on my shoulders.  We have managed thus far, but it’s been really difficult.  For our marriage I’m praying specifically for closeness and strength, and for our family, I’m praying for little ones some day.  We also recently were approved to become foster parents, but we don’t have any placements with us yet.  

Half-way through Monday the wife of the pastor who leads our small group checked in to make sure we were planning to come and asked if I would co-lead with her because her hubs is out of town this week.  Small group was actually really excellent and a couple folks shared some really personal, powerful stuff.  My husband said it felt more intimate, somehow and that he really enjoyed it.  I figure having two women running a group has that effect.  

 

Day 4: Tuesday, Tim calls me and says he has accepted a part time job starting next week with a steady paycheck.  AFTER MONTHS OF TURMOIL IT TOOK 4 DAYS OF FASTING FOR THIS!?!!  I was overjoyed.  

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Tuesday night the weekly men’s group asked if they could meet at our place because their usual spot wasn’t available so I spent hours cleaning and getting the place respectable.  I even put out a spread with a bunch of tempting snacks, and let me tell you, that block of cheese was looking mighty fine by the end of the night.  I could’ve easily curled up with that cheese block for a few hours.  

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By the end of day 4 I was feeling blessed and much cooler with another AC in the dining room. Also, when my house is clean, I feel pretty fabulous.  #domesticgoddess

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Day 5: Brace yourself.  After my morning client I came home and got to see Tim for a little bit, which is an unusual perk.  While we’re spending time together I get an email from DSS that they may a placement for us.  We talked with the worker about the specifics and then prayed about it and agreed to take her in if she is placed in the system at court tomorrow morning.  So, this time tomorrow I may be a foster mom. WHAT ARE YOU SERIOUS?!!!! Yes, yes I am serious.  So basically, these five days have been emotional and crazy and awesome.  And I have 35 to go.  I can’t even talk about it anymore because I need to go buy some food for this poor kid. I really wouldn’t want a teenager to look in my fridge right now, seriously.

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But yeah. THIS IS HAPPENING!! I’m officially removing the 2,4,6,8, and 0 from my keyboard because I CAN’T EVEN!!!!

More to come 😉

 


 

Welp, it’s a hangry world over in the Paquette household today.  Almost immediately, the lack of breakfast today caught the attention of our stomachs, but, more importantly, our minds.  Full disclosure?  I haven’t cracked the book I’m supposed to be reading with this experience and I need to get on that…

We are both struggling as caffeine, refined sugar, carbohydrates, saturated fats, and a variety of other fun additives in most of America’s food slowly detoxes from our bodies.  I woke with a splitting headache today and nothing will squelch it.  Today began with a client and then the man-candy and I met for sunrise-sunset smoothies at Tropical Smoothie Cafe in Williamsburg.  I am very grateful for their non-dairy options today.  

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Now, as I sit and sip a Naked drink, I’m thinking back on today.  Energy was almost non-existent, but I felt healthier.  I was hungry, but I definitely had good prayer time with God this morning.  I’m drained, but I feel okay with that.  I have committed to praying for my marriage, for my health, and for future little Paquettes over the course of this fast.  Here’s hoping for blessings in some or all of those areas.  My health, for one, would *require* miraculous intervention to get any better.  Oh, and guys?  Eat a turkey cheeseburger for me, please.  I miss carbs. And cheese.

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The flesh is weak, man.


Sure, it’s been done.  Probably a few too many times to count.  But I wanted to create this blog to keep me accountable over the next 40 days.  Starting tomorrow, my hubs and I are trying this radial approach to fasting.  Juicing, only juicing.  We are going to pray and tithe and give of our time to the youth program and other things too, but this is the part I think I’ll have the hardest time with.  You see, I love food.  A lot.  I’m worried that I will become mean or exhausted or give up halfway through.  We have this book that gives us a journal to follow which I hope will keep us on track, but this is going to be super hard.   I will try to post every day, or at least every few days, not only to provide updates, but also to keep me accountable to the world.  Fingers crossed that we can do this! ❤ jUICE-2